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After a recent corneal transplant, my eye surgeon made it clear that, during the time my vision remained foggy, I needed to “Keep eye movement to a minimum to encourage the healing process.” Well, he was talking about foregoing things held dear…reading, studying, writing by hand and computing. But restored eyesight is a more than worthwhile goal. Well, my physical vision remains foggy, but some of the ban against eye movement has been lifted.

Toned Down “To Do List”
I was able to take the bustle out of my To Do List because so much of my doing was dependent on reading and writing. But the cutting back didn’t bring me peace. (*_*)

Expectation v.s. Experience
I expected to appreciate the more peaceful pace. But remaining content without Bible, journal, computer and pen proved to be daunting. I thoroughly enjoyed my time with Him in the Word and journaling and time with others by e-mail…and increasingly rare snail-mail. Without this fulfillment, I became listless; lacking energy and enthusiasm.

The Father Discerned what I needed to Learn (Again)

“…for you are to learn to be content in this present circumstance. ” Personalized from Phil. 4:11

Sometimes the familiar needs to be wrested from us; taken by force (for me, by doctor’s orders, which is forceful, indeed). The lesson at hand became clearer. My foggy vision unveiled my foggy perception of myself. Though I viewed myself as being at peace, restlessness had surfaced unexpectedly…followed by inertia.

Become aware of the signs within you
“Pay attention to what you’re experiencing within you. Restlessness is meant to alert you to the need to move beyond where you are.” That was a wakeup call

“He who would love life and see good days…
Let him seek peace and pursue it.” From 1 Peter 3:9

I couldn’t deny that pursue means get moving. The fog lifted as I got the drift of His directive. He was calling me to go through this present discomfort; this restlessness; by choosing to move forward.

“Choose this day whom you will serve…” Joshua 24:15

The Father was reminding me of my commitment to Him and the necessity of discipling my Self (my usual behavior) to more and more be ruled by my devotion to Him rather than by my emotions. And I needed the reminder that the ongoing tug of war within between my spirit and my carnal nature is won (battle by battle) by godly choices and intentional action.

“Wake up, O sleeper. Live purposefully – intentionally – making the most of
your time. And be ever filled with the Spirit.” From Eph. 5:15-18

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